Wearing a mask of life, innermost fatigue.

When every baby is born, it is the simplest and most innocent. All the emotional expressions are very direct and obvious. When you can’t speak, use crying to attract your attention. When you don’t find the problem. The crying will not stop when you find the problem and solve it, you can get a peaceful world and smile. The unpleasantness in front will disappear. The most you worry about is what happened to him, but it’s still easy. Guessing and understanding are not as complicated as imagined.

When he starts to speak, he will directly express his joys, sorrows, sorrows, and sorrows. What you want and what you don’t want will be clearly displayed. Unless it really affects his safety, you will ban him or It is to educate him on right and wrong. Although this time is difficult for parents occasionally, this and that are not necessary, and what they want is different from what the parents think, but this is also when he is born with his own thoughts, and he can express himself. Preferences.

When I arrived at school, I started to learn how to integrate into the group society. I learned more knowledge and met classmates and friends from different families. Some things seemed to be gradually different. As you learn more about the world, you must also be familiar with how to interact with the world. When getting along with others, can you fully show one's own side, or should you accommodate other people's ideas? The process from individual to group is also when many people encounter setbacks. Some people can go home to discuss and communicate with their family members, while others can only pretend to be at home. Nothing happened, and since then it seems to have put on the mask.

What happens at school is at school. When I get home, I don’t say anything to prevent my family from worrying. At school, I may do things I don’t necessarily like but I can’t show it. Even more so, no matter how capable you are, you will always have different masks on your face. On the one hand, it is to protect yourself from harm, and on the other hand, it is to continue to survive in society.

But at a certain point, you will find out why you want to be like this. What am I doing? Why am I so unhappy? No matter what I do well or not, I don’t seem to be like myself anymore. I am getting farther and farther away from my original self, and I start to wonder if I am right and what I want? Or for what?

Someone can switch roles well, and at different stages, different scenes, and different people can show the look they need at that time, but it seems that I can’t do it, every time I wear a mask outside after returning home But it is the exhaustion and inner discomfort. I feel that there is a big contrast. I am doing something that I don’t want to do by myself. The outsiders who do seem to be doing well seem to be good, which makes myself more entangled. , Because that is not what I really am, I just hope that I can let go of most of my guard and calculations, return to a pure state, and be able to show what I want to show, so that I can find some simple happiness.


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